1. What is it like to wake up every morning and pretend that you aren’t dying? 

After the death of your family one can’t not take death seriously, so it is not a thought I would fathom of because it is a very dark place in me.

2. Do you believe in the death penalty? What if someone murdered your mother in cold blood? What if someone murdered a stranger’s mother, but saved your life the month before?

a) no, I believe in redemption and remorse in a moderate sense
b) yeah, if you read ‘Watashitachi no shiawase no jikan’ and saw Prison Break within a 10 days frame…
c) yep 

3. If you had a friend who spoke to you in the same way that you sometimes speak to yourself, how long would you allow that person to be your friend?

Yes, totally, except not when she’s sarcastic :P We’d be best buddies. Except I probably can’t talk as much LOL

4. Would you rather be rich and paralyzed from the waist down or poor and able bodied?

Rich in heart - paralysed; rich in material - poor.

5. What’s the most expensive gift you have ever received? Is it the best gift you have ever received?

My life and myself from my parents. And yes probably. I don’t receive much gifts.

6. When was the last time you lied? Is it possible to lie without saying anything at all?

I lie a lot. Mostly and usually I lie to strangers. And yes, what kind of imagination do you have if you can’t lie without saying anything at all, lol?

7. Stealing is immoral, right? But what if stealing was the only way to feed a starving child?

Stealing from someone who took things immorally from some other people, yeap, it’s cool with me. I’m Type III at the Sliding Scale of anti-heroes, worse I could be Type IV.

8. If I gave you $20, what percentage would you – really – save? If I gave you $200,000, what percentage would you save? Should there be a difference?

Definitely more than 75% will go to bank for 200k. If it’s 20 it doesn’t make enough difference to ‘save’. 

9. If someone could tell you the exact day and time that you are going to die, would you want them to tell you?

No. It’s dreadful living each day to the next knowing you’re going to die soon. Especially I strongly believe future and timelines can change.

10. If you found out you were going to die today, would you have any regrets? Would you be happy with the way you spent the last 24 hours of your life?

Very unhappy and I will haunt my BF and have ghostly sex with him.

11. What’s your single greatest moment of personal failure? Looking back on it now, did it make you weaker or stronger? What did you learn?

My single greatest moment of my personal failure is education. It made me weaker, and I regret everything.

12. Do the words ‘freedom’ and ‘liberty’ mean not being persecuted or discriminated against, or do they mean doing whatever you please?

Either and neither, even though it really should be either or neither. Watch the Dutchess.

13. Have you ever discriminated against someone? Imagine that a street gang notorious for wearing purple shirts has robbed and murdered several hundred people in your town. If a man wearing a purple shirt just rang your doorbell, would you answer it?

I discriminate those people who are fools. You discriminate when you don’t have enough judgement, sometimes it helps, sometimes it doesn’t.

14. Is it crazier to choose to be poor or to spend 40 years of your life hating 40 hours a week?

No… Hating your life is way worse than being poor, and I’ve been poor. The times when everything you spend means 1 more dollar less for tomorrow. I’m much more easily stressed by being unhappy than being poor. Poor doesn’t always mean unhappy, but unhappy always mean unhappy.

15. Do you ever feel like you don’t have enough time? How many hours a week do you spend watching TV, or playing video games, or…?

I have too much time I wish I don’t have enough time. I’m scared that it will become an extreme to pay back for what I have lost.

16. Do you ever celebrate the green lights?

Was that The Great Gatsby reference? I haven’t read it so I don’t fully know the concept of it. But from what I know, probably yes. I have, yes.

17. If you could be given another talent or ability, what would you want it to be? Have you ever – really – tried to perfect this ability in yourself?

Theatricality. And no. It wasn’t feasible and I’m a bit more realistic with my idealism. I am much more idealistic towards human relations than my personal future possibility. There’s probably more things I want but I can’t really pinpoint it one now.

18. No matter how bad things get, are you aware that someone always has it worse than you do?

Yes, always. It’s my only motivation.

19. When you help someone, do you ever think, “What’s in it for me?”

Yes, sometimes. I hate it when I’m being taken advantage of, and I’ve been taken advantage of and I still feel pretty childish about it.

20. Joy is found with simple awareness. What does your joy look like today?

I don’t agree. Awareness is something I both love and hate. And I probably have not much joy, but I’m much more luckier and that is a simple joy.

21. What’s the difference between ‘living’ and ‘existing?’

Living means existing to a lot of people, and vice versa. Some people wish they stop existing and some people wish to live. Living is the presence of body, existing is the presence of soul.

22. Are you willing to sacrifice the life of your child or lover to support a war?

No, fucking damn no. You’re a fucktard for asking me something like that.

23. Do you ask enough questions, or do you settle for what you know?

I probably don’t ask enough questions, but what kind of questions am I asking?

24. If you could do it all over again, would you change anything?

I’d change a lot of things, I think it’s the same with everyone. I regret a lot of things.

25. If your life was a novel, what would be the title and how would your story end?

My story would never end, and the title is probably WIP. :P